One of the earliest lessons that came to me in my Kundalini awakening was to honour my own process. I quickly learned that my old habits and preconceptions would not carry me through this. In many ways, transformation was returning me to a state of infancy. I had to learn about myself and my world anew. Small wonder this is called rebirth.

No longer can I afford to ignore internal messages as I did for most of my life. When I am hungry, I must eat. When I am tired, I need to rest. These things seem obvious enough but for me, living as I did in my head rather than my body, they are revelations.

Before, I did these things robotically, on schedule. Or worse, I'd be so caught up in my obsessions that I'd tune out my body altogether. I mindlessly shovelled in food for fuel and would go to bed only on the brink of exhaustion. But no more. Now, with such roaring energy in my body, my inner balance is much more fragile. If I don't pay attention to basic needs, I instantly 'pay' with sickness, physical collapse, and emotional explosions.

I’ve stopped taking anything for granted. I have an acute awareness of the transience of everything in this world. Looking back over my life, I see that everything I thought would never happen to me; good as well as bad, has happened and is happening.

As I am opened to expanding levels of psychic sensitivity, my way of relating to everyone and everything around me keeps changing. The unpredictable nature of the Kundalini process prevents me from making any definite plans or holding onto absolutes. All I can hold to is my intentions, and I hold them lightly, very lightly.

My sense of myself as ‘doer’ is vanishing. i.e.: I proceed as if I know what I’m doing, all the while fully aware that I have no idea what is really happening. I am a vehicle for powers beyond my human comprehension; life ‘does’ itself through me.