"The point is not that my promise will be broken, the point is that my promise will be kept. Souls must understand that my promise will be kept, even if it seems impossible for souls to experience salvation at any given time."

I could see God's point and I could understand God's point, but living God's point was not a pleasant experience, even for a master. I did not want to experience earth plane difficulties any more, I'd had enough of earth plane difficulties.

I considered seeking guidance, but the only guidance that I would receive, would be to reiterate my need to remain patient. I knew that I needed to remain patient, and I was aware that I needed to remain patient so I did not see much point in being told that I needed to remain patient, again.

It was an interesting time in that I knew at all three levels of my existence that all would be well, which is why I was not concerned or worried. However, knowing that all would be well did not allow me to avoid feeling any experience that I needed to feel.

Many of the events in my life at that time continued to parallel events of more than twelve months earlier. I continued to feel that my life had returned to the point at which my journey had begun.

Anne finally telephoned me. Anne was settled and happy, but exactly where she had been twelve months previously. In fact, our conversation paralleled our conversation of twelve months earlier.

I spent the day and the night meditating. I was not looking for answers, I had my answers. I was looking, or more accurately, waiting for relief.

I could not believe that I could endure any more pressure. It was only days away from the decision regarding Katerina's visa. I was fully focused on the earth plane and I could not see how Katerina would be granted a visa. Even if Katerina was given a visa, I could not afford to have Katerina come to Australia.

I understood that I needed to experience what I was experiencing so that I would have an understanding of what I would need to know if I was to be a teacher. I knew that I could only learn if I experienced. I knew that all would have their own experiences, but all could draw strength from my experiences, if they chose to do so.

In a reversal I found myself searching my soul for awareness, knowledge or experience not that what I had experienced was real, but that what I had experienced was not real.

I could not find any awareness, knowledge or experience that what I had experienced was not real, which was significant in that I had searched my soul whilst still existing from an earth plane perspective only, and that I had searched my soul whilst experiencing ongoing difficulties.

'If everything came together for me' was no longer a question from any perspective. My only question was when and how would everything come together for me. I had believed that I needed to have received my salvation to remove all doubt, but this was not so.

I did still want the pressure of my environment to be removed. I did not want the pressure of my environment any more than Jesus had wanted the crucifixion.

Jesus said, "No, but you did."

I knew exactly what Jesus meant. I had wanted to be crucified nearly two thousand years earlier.

As night became morning, two things occurred. Evelyn's crystals danced like lightening around me. The flashes were the longest and brightest I had seen up to this point. Secondly, I was joined by some very powerful spirits. Their presence was almost electric. There were many masters with me that night.

I found myself reflecting on my youngest son, James. The problems that James had been experiencing a month earlier were now all but gone. There seemed to be no reason for James' problems to be gone. However, I knew that there was a reason why James' problems were gone. Evelyn. Evelyn had helped James even though he had been unaware of Evelyn's help, and even though those around James had convinced him that Evelyn could not help him. I know that Evelyn will continue to help James, and I know that what James or others believe will not alter reality.

It was the early hours of the morning before I even attempted to sleep. However, instead of sleeping I entered the spirit plane.

When I returned from the spirit plane, my perspective from all three planes, the perspective of a master was again with me, and I could feel my heart chakra expanding once more. I knew that the earth plane perspective that I had retained that day, had fulfilled its purpose.

As I reflected on the day's events, I could see that I had responded with only my earth plane perspective exactly as I would have responded if I had retained my trinity perspective. In fact, I realised that I had responded within myself differently to the events that were recurring from twelve months previously. Whenever I retained only my earth plane perspective I felt the experiences, but that was the only difference in my outlook.

I realised another thing when I returned from the spirit plane. If I did not have my financial difficulties in particular, I would be 'floating' on the fabric of existence.

I understood why I needed to re-experience many of the events of my life from twelve months earlier. Re-experiencing from a position of awareness was enabling me to experience which aspects of who I was twelve months earlier had been me, and which aspects of who I was twelve months earlier had not been me. My recurring experiences were enabling me to experience and understand the differences within myself.

I finally slept as night became day.

Shortly after I awoke later that morning, my right ear began to ache and I recalled that I had been warned by Sue that my ears would ache.

I had believed that I would not be able to float within the fabric of existence and to fully become who I am, until I had received my salvation. However, my belief was in reverse.

My difficulties were designed and created to prevent me from fully becoming who I am. I had believed that my difficulties had been the cause of my inability to become who I am. However, my difficulties were not the cause, my difficulties were very intentionally the effect.

My interpretation had been in reverse. I did not have my difficulties because I could not fully realise who I am. I had my difficulties to prevent me from fully realising who I am.

Most of my day was spent in quiet meditation. My body continued to tingle and flutter as my vibrational rate increased with my awareness.

Later that day, my earth plane perspective returned. I found myself reviewing the earth plane aspects of my current lifetime. Notwithstanding my current position, I had no regrets. I'd had my share of difficult experiences in this lifetime. Death of a number of people who I cared about, a number of broken relationships, judgement and jealousy in the business world because I was different and I was an achiever. I could regret nothing that had occurred in my life, regardless of how painful my experiences were.

I had made many decisions which had caused me aggravation, and had caused me to repeat difficult experiences. At times, I had been blind to what was happening within my life when those around me could see the 'mistakes' that I was making.

I had made many hard decisions, and I had felt each and every one of my decisions very deeply. I had attempted to be a strong person all of my life, only to learn that I was being 'strong' by the standards of others and not being true to myself. I had sacrificed myself for others, to do what was 'right' over and over again.

I had very little from a materialistic viewpoint to show from a lifetime of hard work, and what I did have was in storage with no prospect of me being able to retrieve it.

I had support from friends, Nancy in particular, but I was estranged from my immediate family and I could not see that my wife could obtain her visa which would enable her to join me. I was emotionally alone.

My financial position was such that unless something occurred soon, the process would begin to commence legal action, which could very well result in the loss of my children's home.

I had a well paid job which gave me no satisfaction. I could not remove myself from my employment environment because I needed to maintain the income to support my children and my wife.

I was in a hole and I could see no way out. However, despite all of my earth plane issues, and even when viewed entirely from the earth plane, I could find no regrets.

I considered how I was dealing with my current environment. I was living each day. I was not dwelling on the past, and I was not attempting to live in the future. Mostly, I was at peace and content despite the enormous pressure upon me. The pressure upon me existed, the pressure upon me felt real, and I could not remove the pressure which was upon me. I was not happy and carefree, but I was not depressed either. I existed within a difficult environment, and I accepted my environment. Mostly, I spent my time in deep meditation drawing on the remainder of my awareness.

Despite the number of times that I had questioned, I could not find anything that I could or should be doing differently. I suspected that the reason that I questioned was so that I would understand that everything was as everything was meant to be. I received my joy from the simple pleasures of life, such as drawing from the beauty of the world.

The following morning, I continued to draw on the results of the previous day's meditation. Most of the financial difficulties that I faced at that point were a direct result of my journey. Funds, albeit borrowed funds, had been provided when funds were needed, and when God had specifically told me that funds would be available. I had only been 'reckless' from the earth plane perspective, because I had put my faith in God. I now needed to maintain my faith that I would be able to repay the funds, as God had told me that I would.

I wondered about the money that I had been sending to my wife, and whether we should have decided that Katerina would work instead of me supporting her. I had not known it when I had agreed to support Katerina, but without my ongoing financial support her slim chance of obtaining a visa would have been no chance. We had needed to establish an ongoing pattern of financial support, which we had not known until a little over a week previously, which was several months after I had made my decision to be Katerina's sole source of financial support. It had been essential that I had supported Katerina, so everything was as everything was meant to be, despite the fact that supporting my wife increased the pressure on my finances considerably.

Everyway that I looked at my current situation, everything was and everything had been exactly as everything had meant to be. I was aware of 'why' every aspect of my journey, and my present difficulties were necessary.

I knew that this review and my previous reviews of my journey from an earth plane perspective were a necessary part of the process.

I wondered if I was dwelling on the pressures within my environment, but I was not dwelling on the pressures within my environment. I was being reminded of the pressures within my environment wherever I turned.

In a stark contrast, some aspects of my environment which could have added to the pressure did not, which was significant in itself. I was being reminded of the pressures within my environment, but the pressures within my environment were not being increased.

I wanted nothing more than peace. I wanted to be left alone without any pressure and I wanted anonymous peace. I did not want to establish a spiritual centre. However, I suspected that after a few months of peace, what I wanted would change.

Not for the first time, I questioned that wisdom of our existence could flow from me, but I could not get my own simple life in order.

The following morning, I reflected on the previous day. I felt my heart chakra expand once more, and I felt my body flutter and tingle with my contact with the fabric of existence.

The previous evening, I had felt that I was close to retrieving some new awareness. I retained that feeling, but I could not reach the new awareness that I was close to.

When I reflected that I could not get my own life in order, I questioned what type of example I would be. I did know that what I was experiencing was a part of example, despite questioning what type of example I would be. I knew I was an accurate example, but I did not want to be an example any more. I wanted peace.

More accurately, I felt that I had done everything that had been asked of me and that it was time for the part of the example that demonstrated the peace and the happiness which resulted from following the difficult path, the high road, to begin.

It was now ten days away from the date that I had been given when I would leave the business, which would be enough time for me to complete some tasks that I had been given, to replace the computer systems work that I had been originally given to do, but had really only been a ruse to return me to solitude.

The decision in respect of Katerina's visa would probably be made tomorrow, but I doubted if we would be aware of the decision immediately. Even if Katerina did obtain her visa, which I doubted in my present environment, I could do nothing to bring Katerina to Australia, until I received my allusive salvation.

If Katerina was to be with me for Christmas, I had only three weeks in which to obtain funds, find a home, and retrieve our belongings from storage. I did not believe it was possible for Katerina to be with me for Christmas.

I considered the remaining three weeks before Christmas. During that time I needed to retain my employment for at least half of the time, even if the date when I had been told that I would leave the business was correct. During this time Katerina would need to finalise the visa process. Even if the funds that I required to provide my salvation were provided on this day, it would take some time to realise the funds, and I needed my promised funds to even begin to do all that I needed to do.

If everything was to occur, as everything was allegedly going to occur, prior to Christmas, I would be cutting it very fine indeed. It was possible for everything to occur prior to Christmas, but it was barely possible for everything to occur prior to Christmas.

There was nothing left for me to do, except wait and see what occurred.

I found it fascinating that I was required to experience the next few days from an earth plane perspective, but I did know that the earth plane perspective was the only way that I would feel the experience, whatever the experience would be.

I found myself reflecting on how basic my meditation techniques were. Each of us has the ability to meditate in many ways regardless of our environment. All that is required is something very basic to distract our conscious mind.

As had been the pattern for a number of days, I spent most of the day meditating. I did find and remove one more doubt. I doubted that a master would feel earth plane pressures, which had been one reason why I had doubted that I was a master.

When I was not meditating, I was able to sleep and whenever I awoke, my body tingled and fluttered with contact with the fabric of existence and my ever increasing vibrational rate. I did not quite know how to describe the sensation.

I found myself wondering what would occur after my journey had been made public. I knew many would condemn much of what I said as 'the work of the devil'.

Jesus said, "Some will attack you. It will be their defence against what you have experienced. Do not forget that you ask nothing. You have relayed your experiences, and suggested that all look within. What is satanic about asking people to look within themselves for the truth? Your only statement is that God is love, and God is everywhere. There is nothing satanic in the reality that God is love and God is everywhere. Some will suggest that you use the comments God is love and God is everywhere, to give others an opportunity to believe your experiences, but you ask not for belief nor anything else from another.

"Each must find their own truth within themselves, which you acknowledge. Have no concern my friend, because I will walk with you."

I knew that the next few days would be critical in respect of the alleged timing of the end of my difficulties, but I also knew that in the scheme of things, whatever happened did not much matter.

Jesus said, "Most of the perfection associated with masters is a result of erroneous reporting, as we have established, which is why it has been necessary for you to 'report' your own experiences.

"What you are demonstrating is that you are a master. You retain your humanity, you still have difficulties, you still feel your experiences and you are a master. A master does not need to be perfect. You have no rules, no ceremonies. You are required to do nothing other than to allow yourself, to be yourself. You have no self-sacrifice to make. You are simply a master.

"The implications of your message will frighten a great many people. Many will be very much afraid of what you are saying. You have demonstrated that all can become a master from within their own environment, even if that environment is difficult. However, the difficulties do not have to be extreme. All may become a master, and all will become a master, which is the last thing that people are ready or willing to accept. All people can become a master from within their own environment.

"However, this is not a coincidence, because that they will become a master is the last thing that people will accept.

"Every master has had periods of solitude, and every master has a period of difficulty, which have been acknowledged, but it was determined that the difficulties faced by a master are extraordinary. This was not so. This is not so.

"Difficulties are not necessary for one to become a master. One only needs to consciously decide to become a master. If you had consciously chosen to follow your spiritual path, you would not have needed to have been thrust upon your spiritual path. Nor would I, because I was no different than you.

"The path that you have experienced was necessary, because what you have experienced was all that you had left to experience, but the experience would have been so much easier for you to endure if you had consciously chosen the experience, and allowed the experience to happen.

"However, you were not destined to make such a choice. You continue to be too hard on yourself. You still question that you are doing nothing, and wonder if others will also think that they must do nothing. This is not so. You are doing much. You have written five books and seven chapters of insights within an eighteen month period, whilst maintaining your employment. This has been difficult, but you have achieved it. Do not underestimate your achievement.

"You do not feel your achievement, because you have not yet experienced the realisation, or if you prefer the result of your achievement. What do you expect? How can you experience what you have achieved, until you realise what you have achieved?

"You feel that you do nothing because you spend your time in solitary meditation. To spend all of one's time in solitary mediation is one of the most difficult things that can be asked of anyone.

"If you consider your writing from an earth plane perspective, the subject matter is awareness through looking within. Is not solitary meditation therefore research for your writing? Is this any different from spending time at a police station if you were a crime novelist?

"You are correct my friend. You have done all that has been asked of you. You are also correct in that you did not consciously choose this path. You have however consciously chosen each step.

"You are a good person and you do deserve the joy that will come to you. All are good people and all will know that they are good people when they become aware of who they are.

"You must endure a little while longer. The end of your journey to awareness is closer than you think.

"You know that each part of your environment has been necessary to unlock your awareness and you know that your meditation of the previous few days has allowed this discussion to occur. You know that you had retrieved this information during your meditation. It is not a coincidence that your friend Nancy provided the key to unlock your awareness.

"You know that it is not necessary that your awareness is retrieved with my assistance, but you have my assistance now because you are ready to receive assistance from me. As I have said my friend, we will walk together.

"You know that if your environment had been other than what your environment has been, you would not have looked so deep within yourself. Understand that without your difficulties it would not have been necessary for you to look so hard and so deep within yourself. You created your difficulties, to 'force' yourself to look deep within. Did not Sitting Crow tell you a year ago that you must look deep?

"Have no fear. I am Jesus. I am a master. I am a friend to all, but our relationship is beyond friendship. I say to you, have no concern. Your family will not lose their home. You will experience the joy and happiness which is the second part of our example. Trust me my friend, trust yourself and trust God the ocean, God the fabric of existence.

"You were my closest friend in my final lifetime and lifetimes before that. Many have attempted to change this fact. It did not sit well with those creating a religion that I was 'betrayed' by my closest friend, so they attempted to alter the truth.

"You attempt to avoid writing much of what I say to you, when what I say relates to yourself. This is your humility. You are concerned that you are proclaiming yourself to be a saviour or a messiah. You are not proclaiming yourself to be a saviour or a messiah. You are not claiming to be special in anyway.

"You are an average man with your share of difficulties, which has not changed since your journey to awareness began. This is the point. This is our point. You have undertaken your spiritual journey from within your existing environment. All can undertake a spiritual journey from within their existing environment. You are not special, and you do not claim to be special. This is our point. This is God's point. This is the point of the example.

"We have said this before, and now we repeat it. You are looking at this from the mirror perspective of the earth plane. You are not saying that you are special because of what you have experienced. You are saying; 'this is what I have experienced, and I am not special'.

"Consider if your solitude and awareness had occurred through spending forty days in a desert. Who could have followed your example in today's environment? So your solitude and awareness occurred from within your average, everyday environment.

"I did go into the desert and there have been a number of souls who followed my example, but many chose to believe that they had to live in the desert. I never lived in the desert. I never lived in solitude. Consider aspects which remain of my teachings, I enjoyed life. I did not hide from life. However, throughout that which has formed the basis of the New Testament was only preparation, the first part of my journey. This is effectively the point which you have now reached, the completion of preparation.

"Make no mistake, it is not a coincidence that the truth of my life is being discovered from many different sources now that your time is here. It is not your role to discover the truth of my life, that is the role of others. However, through you and your work, I can and I will confirm that many are now finding the truth.

"You still think that you should not feel your difficulties because you are a master, but this is why you feel your difficulties, because you are also an ordinary man. You think that if you were a master you would not feel your difficulties. However, you have accepted that you are a master for some time and your difficulties have not disappeared. If your difficulties had disappeared as soon as you accepted that you are a master, we would have provided the wrong message.

"You now wonder if you are justifying why your difficulties do not cease, but to what end? So you can justify that you are a master? You do not even want to be a master! You have chosen to be a master, and you have accepted that you are a master, but do not want to be a master. This is the way of a master. You are not saying, 'I am special, I am a master'. You are saying, 'I am not special and I am a master'. You desire only peace.

"You do not want all that will come with your path, either positive or negative from the perspective of the earth plane. However, you have accepted that your path is your path. You would be content to have your work published, because that is your purpose, your role, your task, and live a peaceful and anonymous life.

"I know that a peaceful and anonymous life is what you want, because a peaceful and anonymous life is what I wanted, but a peaceful and anonymous life is not your path. You know that a peaceful and anonymous life is not your path, and you accept a peaceful and anonymous life is not your path, but a peaceful and anonymous life is all that you want.

"You wonder if you use the 'experience' issue to justify your actions, but if this was so you would walk away from your family and justify your actions by saying 'that is what they have chosen to experience'. However you know that this is not so, and therefore you cannot walk away from your family.

"Your example is to maintain your responsibilities and to demonstrate that one can become aware, spend time meditating in solitude, and maintain one's responsibilities.

"Your action in accepting your path is putting yourself in the hands of God. You have accepted your path, despite that such a path is not what you desire. You ask for nothing from any. You do not desire to be seen as a leader, you do not desire followers. You want a peaceful existence."

I supposed that I needed to accept that everything would not be in order by Christmas. There remained a faint chance that everything would fall into place prior to Christmas, but the possibility of everything falling into place prior to Christmas did seem very remote.

All of the assurances that I had received from God or from Jesus did not change the fact that nothing changed in respect of my overall environment.

Whether Katerina obtained her visa or not would not change the reality that Katerina is my soulmate. I had certainly searched for evidence that Katerina is not who Katerina is, but I could not find any. In many respects my life would have been easier if Katerina was not my soulmate. However, Katerina is my soulmate and whether we are meant to be together or not, will not change the reality that Katerina is my soulmate. Whether we are destined to be together does not matter in the scheme of things. However, whether we are to be together does matter to me.

I want to be with Katerina. I retain my humanity and I want to be with my wife. In fact, all that I want to experience is a peaceful life with my wife, which is not too much to ask.

There is something that I had avoided saying all day. In fact, I had probably been avoiding saying the words for days, so Jesus spoke for me.

"If you do not receive your salvation and if you are not with Katerina, it would make a nonsense of our message."

I agreed with Jesus, but I did not know what I was supposed to do. Every time that I had searched for something to do, I had been told to do nothing.

My environment was obviously artificial, and very specifically created to assist with my awareness.

I had questioned the times when I had sent money to Katerina when I could have used the money to pay some outstanding accounts, but the money which had been 'unavailable' became available exactly when Katerina needed money.

Everything was exactly as everything was meant to be.

I continued meditating. I could not move past the reality that my difficulties were artificial, within the artificial environment of the earth plane. My difficulties were real from the perspective of the earth plane, and my difficulties felt real, but my difficulties had a very specific purpose.

I felt my difficulties, because I was supposed to feel my difficulties. My difficulties, like my journey, were concentrated to enable me to experience all that I needed to experience, in a way that would allow me to record my journey.

I continued to meditate. I was at peace. In fact, I was 100% sure that if I did not have the pressures within my environment I would be permanently at peace. Even with my concerns, if my responsibilities to my family did not exist, I would be at total peace.

It was only the combination of these aspects of my environment that caused me any difficulty at all. It was apparent that my environment was controlled so that I would be an example. What I did not know at this point, was how my environment was controlled.

Had I turned my back on my life, I would have peace now. I would have enjoyed a happy and content life, deriving pleasure from the beauty of the world, and at one with all that is.

I knew that I continued to repeat certain points, but I also knew that I only repeated certain points, because the points that I repeated were a very important part of the example.

It is difficult to describe what it is like to exist on all three planes at one time.

You can feel your contact with the very fabric of existence, and your body tingles and flutters with the sensation of your contact with the very fabric of existence.

You are aware of and can easily communicate with the spirit plane, but you are not on the spirit plane.

From an earth plane perspective, you are aware of much. You can feel the blood pulsing through your veins. I considered two simple activities that I did, which were generally considered 'bad' for us. When I smoked I could feel the drug reacting with my body. When I drank coffee I could really taste the coffee, but what I experienced was more than tasting the coffee. I could feel the coffee move down into my stomach and the liquid would tingle all the way down my oesophagus.

I had become aware from within my environment of ever increasing difficulties.

I had become a master.