I attempted to recommence my review, but I was unable to do so, which did not really concern me. I knew that I had placed a key within my notes which I was not ready to receive.

I was feeling a strange mixture. I was at peace. A peace alternating between inner peace and total peace. I had a sense of excitement and at the same time a sense of apprehension. I had a sense of well being, my hands permanently tingled from the fabric of existence, and I felt a light fluttering as my vibrational rate continued to adjust.

Everything that I felt was from either the spirit or higher planes. From the perspective of the earth plane I observed. I was mostly relaxed and happy with my life, despite the fact that my difficulties remained.

I did still want to make something happen, but I knew that I could not make anything happen. I knew that I needed to flow and wait for my will and my want to become synchronised.

I slept well that night, but in the morning I was not rested. I had spent most of the night on the spirit plane. What I returned from the spirit plane with was confusing with many unrelated images intertwined, so I simply accepted what I had been given and I did not attempt to understand it. If I needed to understand what I had learned, I would allow my understanding to develop.

I retained my peace and mixture of excitement and apprehension from the previous day. I had determined that I could assist Nancy enough for her to get by, and maybe a little more in a few weeks time even if my difficulties were not resolved. I had reached a point where I could not help myself, so I may as well help Nancy.

I cannot say that I enjoyed my environment, but I no longer had any 'negative' thoughts about my environment. I accepted my environment and I flowed. I was not happy with my environment, but I was happy within myself. I did not particularly like my environment, but I did not particularly dislike my environment either. I accepted my environment. No more or no less than that. Whenever I soared too far, a minor ailment would bring me back to earth.

The substance of my new world was continuing to be built from within my old world, but I was not ready to step into my new world. I knew that I was not ready to step into my new world, because I had not stepped into my new world. However, I felt that I was ready to step into my new world.

I wondered how feeling happy within myself, regardless of what was occurring within my environment, applied to a situation where a loved one died.

God explained, "A test of one's love is whether happiness that a loved one has moved on, outweighs the self pity one feels at their loss."

I felt that I would step into my new world any day, but I had felt that I would step into my new world 'any day' for a long time. I would not have been surprised if I stepped into my new world in a day, or in a year. However, I did want to step into my new world now. If I needed to wait a year before I stepped into my new world, I would wait a year before I stepped into my new world, which would increase my difficulties. I would not like to wait a year before I stepped into my new world, but I would accept that I needed to wait a year before I stepped into my new world.

I suspected that the excitement that I felt within related to the proximity of my new world, and I suspected that the apprehension that I felt within related to the fact that I accepted the possibility that I may not step into my new world.

I was attempting to understand what my dual feeling of excitement and apprehension meant. I subconsciously drew on my experiences from my journey and then from my lifetime. Excitement and apprehension were feelings that I had experienced many times, and what I experienced after feeling each or both before was varied. Sometimes something that I enjoyed had occurred, sometimes something that I did not enjoy had occurred, and sometimes nothing had occurred. The pattern parallelled the timing issue and the answer to my question was the same as the answer to my timing question. It meant nothing.

As if to highlight the point both feelings firstly intensified, and then subsided before returning to the level they had been hovering around.

I wondered if there were signs or indications of what was to come. I drew on my awareness that there are no signs, which I knew even when I looked for signs. On many occasions, I had been surrounded by signs that my difficulties were over only to have my difficulties continue.

I knew that signs mean nothing. What we receive are answers, not signs. However, it is easy to mistake an answer for a sign. When we ask for a sign to indicate which direction our path should follow, we are really seeking an answer to a specific question. By describing an answer as a sign, we confuse ourselves through mislabelling.

What would be considered a sign is too general a description. What we receive are answers to specific questions regardless of the form that they take, we do not receive signs. It is not what we receive that is in error, it is our description and interpretation.

Put simply we do not receive signs, we receive answers.

It was also apparent that I subconsciously drew on my awareness in response to every thing which I experienced. Sometimes this would be simply to apply my awareness and sometimes it would be to expand upon my awareness.

My writing continued to follow the pattern which had been apparent from the beginning of my recorded journey. I would often struggle to know what I would write in a paragraph only to find that I was still writing several pages later.

I had been watching a group of wild birds and also a few insects for some time. Occasionally I would communicate with them. However what was highlighted as I watched day after day was the individual personalities of the souls which occupied those birds and insects.

I was very much aware of aspects of the world around me and I could see wherever I looked not only that the truth of our existence surrounded us, but also that life itself confirmed my experiences. In fact I could see very clearly that the single aspect of existence which was in opposition to the reality of existence was the conscious mind.

The truth of the reality of existence is within us and surrounds us. It is everywhere except within the conscious mind. The conscious mind effectively blocks and filters the truth of our existence which is by design. It is this filtering process which allows us to exist and experience within the illusion. The conscious mind is so effective in its role that we can only see reality whether it is within or all around us by consciously choosing to do so. It is this conscious choice which is also the conscious choice to remove our conscious mind from the equation.

What we are effectively telling our conscious mind is that we no longer require its services and the very nature of our conscious mind ensures that it fights this process. By consciously accepting reality we are asking our conscious mind to discontinue doing the very thing which it is designed to do. We are asking our conscious mind to stop fulfilling its purpose.

The pattern of expanding my awareness which had been apparent throughout this book continued. In fact I could see how each book in the series had followed a pattern of its own. Each volume expanded on and clarified the awareness of the preceding book and my journey.

I again reflected on this month which felt like a year even though it was not yet complete. However it was more than just one month, it was that the previous twenty-five months felt like twenty-five years. Even this was an understatement, such was the intensity and concentration of my experiences.

I noticed some similarities from my experience with Jane 2. It was apparent that the unknown spirit was now beginning to effect my environment. I still did not know what she wanted, but I now knew her name, Susan. I said, "Susan, go to the light."

I was given a brief vision in which I 'saw' two of my non spiritual books, completed and published. One was a business based book and the other was a novel. This was the catalyst for a quick consideration of all that I knew I would do in this lifetime. I knew what I would achieve in respect of aspects of my life which had not begun.

I drew on my experiences and I saw that there were many events which I had known would occur, earth plane events which ranged from knowing I would be with my soul mate even before I recognised her, to my trips to Europe, to many other experiences. I'd had friends who had witnessed my knowing what would occur, and it was with this same knowledge, that I knew that my problems would be resolved.

The interesting factor in the timing of Nancy's difficulties was that I was finally able to consider attending to some of my minor creditors. It was apparent that the solution to my difficulties must come from an outside source regardless of which scenario would apply. Each time that I had attempted to find my own way out of my difficulties, something had occurred to prevent me from finding my own way out of my difficulties. I knew that I was meant to have my difficulties, and that I had chosen my difficulties.

The day in the office was a repeat of my recent experiences. I was handed one problem after another, which I addressed and then handed back, or passed on. My peace remained and the day flowed easily. Susan remained with me.

During the day I took a break from the business to reflect on my current situation. The fact that I had funds available for Nancy when Nancy really needed funds was a continuation of the pattern which had applied throughout my journey, and in particular when I needed to send funds to Katerina.

I would have no money, I would struggle, and I would be unable to attend to my own debts. Suddenly money would be available when money was really needed by someone else. A continuing pattern which once more highlighted that whilst my difficulties were real, my difficulties were also artificial.

I was meant to have my difficulties. From my lower self perspective I did not want my difficulties. I wanted to do something to address my difficulties, but I was blocked at every attempt I made to address my difficulties.

I had always believed, and I still believed that if I was not happy with something I should change whatever I was not happy with. I had always applied this principle to my life without knowing exactly what I was doing or why. I knew that changing something that we did not like, was not always easy. Sometimes changing something that we did not like was very difficult. I had experienced environments throughout my life when I had not been able to change what I was experiencing. My current environment was no different, albeit a little more obvious which was I suspected was a product of my awareness.

Despite that I knew that I could do nothing I continued to search my environment, looking for an option, a course of action to take, which would solve my problems. I could only think of one possible solution to my problems, which was not really a practical solution to my problems or even a solution to my problems that I could seriously contemplate, but another short term temporary solution to my problems. I could not see how the possible solution to my problems was viable or practical. Like every other possible solution to my problems, it was a partial solution at best, and even in combination with other partial solutions to my problems, it would not resolve my difficulties.

Once more I was left with the answer to do nothing. However, I did not totally discount the possible solution to my problems which I had determined that day, I put possible solution to my problems to one side, with my other potential solutions to my problems, which were not really solutions to my problems.

In a repeat of the previous night, I spent most of my time on the spirit plane. I returned with mixed images which I could not quite understand.

The following morning, I contemplated the possible solution to my problems which I had considered the previous evening, and I reached the same conclusion.

I noted with interest, that my experiences seemed to be occurring in pairs. I would experience something one day and I would repeat the experience the next day.

I reflected upon my environment within the business. I was once more the person who made things happen, which had been exactly what I was before my journey and my difficulties started. In fact, for the period of my recorded journey, whilst I could only do enough to maintain my employment, nothing had really happened within the business. The business had drifted, and in many ways I was literally 'picking up where I had left off'.

When I viewed the aspects of my environment collectively, I was left with the conclusion that I was not meant to know what was going to happen next.

When I considered my position within the business, I had to ask myself if my journey had simply been to keep me going whilst I recovered from the stress and was able to drive the business once more. From an earth plane perspective, this was exactly what had occurred.

When I added my 'spiritual' experiences to the equation the scenario was very obviously flawed. The reality was that I was still searching for something to do, certainly not in a desperate way, but I was searching nonetheless. In many ways I was eliminating all of the 'somethings' that I could do, and I was left with what I had been told that I should do, nothing because there was nothing that I could do.

I considered seeking clarification from Sue, but I decided to put this option on 'hold'. If I was meant to seek clarification from Sue, I would seek clarification from Sue. A message which Sue had previously passed on was once again placed in my mind; 'God has not let you down before.'

If my journey had been to allow me to recover from my stress, my journey could have concluded a long time ago, and without the need to incur financial difficulties beyond my capability of sustaining. Without a solution to my difficulties, I would become a bankrupt, my children would lose their home, I would lose what remained of my possessions, and I would have no choice but to walk away from Katerina. If my journey had been to allow me to recover from stress, my current situation would not achieve that end.

Jesus said, "Do nothing, and have faith in God."

Having eliminated every other possibility, I could not argue with Jesus' advice. I had eliminated every other possibility and I had established, even from an earth plane perspective, that there was no solution to my difficulties without intervention from the very fabric of existence. If there was another solution to my difficulties I could not see it, and I had certainly looked.

There was no key within my old environment which would unlock the gateway to my new world. I could not reach my new environment, that of a spiritual writer and teacher. I had attempted to reach my new environment on a number of occasions without success. My new environment would be a product of my new world, and not the key to my new world.

I understood what I had learned on the spirit plane. I was looking to make something happen, but despite my efforts I could not make something happen.

I found my spiritual centre in my mind, information which had seemed to conflict previously now seemed to fit very nicely together. I knew the name of the spiritual centre, and I knew the geographic location of the spiritual centre. My confusion had come from my attempt to put the pieces of my spiritual centre together, before I'd had all of the pieces.

At that moment in time, my clarity was startling. I would remain with the business whilst the business was restructured and focused. Effectively saving the business as I had requested. During this time I would begin to finalise my new world as I finalised my writing. I would then walk away from the business, and establish my spiritual centre.

In the meantime, I would receive a period of rest from my journey as I would be completing what I had started. My experiences would be ones of clarification and review. In short, the pressure and the intensity would be off.

That night, my aura broke free of some of the remaining 'scum', my contact with the fabric of existence grew, and my heart chakra expanded.

As my clarity increased many questions were answered, but many of the answers were effectively 'probable answers'. I needed one more earth plane event to confirm the 'probable answers'. If the earth plane event occurred, it would increase my level of surprise, and a few unanswered questions would remain, but they would soon be answered.

I began to feel that I should rush some of the work that I had to do.

God said, "Brian, there is no rush."

I noted with interest that what it appeared likely would occur, I had determined that I could not do. I may have subsequently accepted that I could balance managing the business, my spiritual journey, and bringing Katerina into my world, but it now seemed that I would in fact, experience managing the business, my spiritual journey, and bringing Katerina into my world.

I reviewed, I meditated, and I prepared to reach for the key to my new world, if I was in fact being presented with the key to my new world.

Without reason my wrists itched from where I had been bound to the cross. Immediately I wrote the words 'without reason' I knew that there was in fact a reason why my wrists itched from where I had been bound to the cross. I was finally releasing myself from the self inflicted punishment which had started from my crucifixion.

As I reflected on the developments of that day, I was reminded of what I had been repeatedly told. 'It will happen suddenly. I will go to sleep in my old world and wake up in my new world.' The developments of that day had certainly happened suddenly.

I reflected that God had been very right in what God had said that night. If I had known that the solution to my difficulties would come from within the business, if that was what was to occur, I would have searched and attempted to make the solution to my difficulties happen.

The following morning, I was a little tired from lack of sleep. I maintained my peace and my sense of well being, but I was too tired to maintain my excitement.

I was prepared to reach for the key which would unlock the door to my new world, but it was only as the day progressed that I would know for sure if I was able to reach for the key to my new world, and it was only by reaching for the key to my new world, that I would know if what I saw was the key to my new world.

The puzzle which was the door to my new world may have been falling into place, but there were still conflicts contained within individual pieces of the puzzle.

God said, "Have faith."

Faith was not the problem in that I had faith in respect of my difficulties being resolved, but I retained my flexibility in respect of how my difficulties would be resolved. I believed that regardless of how my difficulties were resolved I would remain with the business, until what I had commenced the previous day, had been completed.

Many aspects of this book had been a refresher course as my awareness increased and was fine tuned. I recalled several incidents which had occurred a few days earlier and focused upon my ability to look into another's soul.

I had experienced a range of applications of my ability to look into another's soul in quick succession. I experienced how some people were very open and a quick glance into their eyes allowed me to look into their souls. Other people had what amounted to a shield preventing others from seeing into their souls. However, I had also experienced that I could penetrate the shield if I took a little time to look passed the shield. In fact, I had not encountered a soul, in any physical form, who I could not see passed their shield and into their soul if I so chose. I seldom chose to look into people's souls, using my ability to look into souls only when my ability to look into souls was required.

That morning, I knew the title of my book which would bring all of the analogies I had been given together as a collection of complete stories; Analogies Of Reality.

I saw that my next step, the first step into my new world would be one of review, consolidation, and completion. The pieces of the puzzle which formed the door, or the gateway into my new world were continuing to fall into place.

I would continue to fine tune my awareness. My new world would have been created from within my average, everyday environment which had been the point of my example.

I reflected that if I had known that I would achieve all that I had achieved, effectively from within my environment which existed when I began my journey, I would neither have believed it nor would I have commenced my journey. In all probability I would have given up on this lifetime. I had been close to giving up on this lifetime anyway.

I did not receive the key to new world that day. In fact, I did not even get the opportunity to reach for the key to new world.

In a continuation of my days effectively occurring in pairs, that day was a repeat of the previous day. In view of what had occurred the previous day, I would not have believed that a repeat of the previous day's events would have been possible.

I had a meeting to discuss an ongoing joint marketing exercise. What I learned was that the business associate was in the process of launching a distribution network of their own. Aspects of their network would overlap with aspects of our network placing us in competition.

By the end of the meeting we had agreed to supply products which would be marketed under their brand, increasing our market penetration with alternate brands, which would also increase our buying power with suppliers.

If the key to new world was to be provided as it appeared that the key to new world would be provided, which was contrary to what I had been told on a number of occasions, I would need to wait for two days before I could take the next step.

I spoke with Jane that afternoon. Jane's difficulties remained, but they were not as intense as they had been. Jane was looking at a premises for a shop, and the circumstances seemed to fit into what I had described for Jane a year earlier. Jane asked if it was the shop that she would buy, but I had no answer for her. I explained to Jane that if I had an answer I would allow the answer to surface, and then I would contact her.

The spirit Susan had not been with me that day. Late in the night I saw Evelyn's crystals floating above me.

The next morning, I reflected on the events of the previous few days. I believed that regardless of what occurred I would remain with the business, until the new venture was finalised, which could take a little time. However, I knew I was the one who would make the opportunities presented to the business, a reality.

That I was the one who would make the opportunities presented to the business, a reality, was not based on ego. I knew from experience that I had a unique ability to make things happen. Whenever I was involved things happened and whenever I was not involved, things drifted. This was not a new development in itself. The experience had been repeated throughout my business life. It was my ability to make things happen, which had enabled me to be successful throughout my business life.

The joint venture would change the way the industry, or parts of the industry conducted business, which was not daunting because I had changed the way the industry conducted business previously. Concepts that I had developed and believed in, despite being told that my concepts would not work by all those who were around me, had worked to the extent that the industry adopted or attempted to adopt my concepts.

In respect of the guidance which Jane had requested, the reason that I did not have guidance was that I was blocking any answer to Jane's question. I was still daunted by the implications of providing such direct advice. 'It was more appropriate to Jane that she trusted her own instinct not mine.' When I first wrote this sentence, I had thought that it was an observation, but as soon as I wrote it, I knew that my words were in fact the guidance which Jane had requested. I had received the guidance for Jane as soon as I understood why I was blocking the guidance for Jane.

I had accepted responsibility for a medium term project within the business, despite that on a number of occasions during the previous two years I had avoided accepting responsibility for medium term projects within the business, in the belief that I would not be available to see the projects completed. However, I remained attached to the business and the projects which I had previously avoided remained incomplete.

God said, "If you had accepted responsibility for the projects which you have avoided, the projects would have been completed."

"Importance is the point we are making. Souls need to experience that no importance should be placed on any artificial aspect of their lives. Importance is being placed on something, even if that something is made artificially unimportant. You have made things, or attempted to make things firstly artificially important and then, experiencing the other side of the coin, artificially unimportant. It was only when you removed the artificial factor and accepted that something was neither important nor unimportant that you allowed that something to occur.

"To place no importance on something is your choice, and the choice to place no importance on something applies to the experiences of all. As with all concepts and principles that you have experienced within your recorded journey, the principle of no importance was concentrated firstly one way and then the other, which has been necessary to provide the example, and is also why you are the example."

I immediately reacted, concerned that perhaps I was placing too much importance on removing my financial difficulties, finding a home, and being with my wife.

God said, "Do not be concerned. A comfortable existence with your wife is what you want, but you have not placed artificial importance upon what you want. You want a comfortable existence with your wife, because a comfortable existence with your wife is what you want to experience, but you have accepted that if what you want does not occur your world will not end, your journey will continue. When one places artificial importance on something they are effectively saying; 'if I do not have this I cannot continue'. When one is placing artificial unimportance on something they are saying; 'if this occurs I cannot continue'. You no longer apply artificial importance of either type on your environment.

"Wanting something is necessary as I have explained, but wanting something is very different from placing artificial importance on something although the two are often combined.