The direction which my life would take very much hinged on what would occur in the next few days. With an element of luck, which I knew would be the fabric of existence providing assistance to allow me to experience what I was meant to experience, all my present difficulties would suddenly end and I would complete the foundation of my new world.

Without the element of luck, I would need to commit myself to the business, which I did not know how I could do when I had difficulty balancing a need to attend the office and being delayed through conversations with Jesus for example. I could not even explain why I was late and I had already used every excuse I could conceive.

Without an element of luck, I would forfeit what possessions I had left to the storage company as I would be unable to retrieve my possession from storage. I had no where to put my possession even if I could retrieve my possession.

Without an element of luck, my children would eventually lose their home, because their home was the only asset which I had left. I did not have resources to reach an acceptable scheme of arrangement with all of my creditors. I owed too many organisations too much money.

Without an element of luck, I could not repay my friends who had assisted me, and were beginning to be adversely affected by my journey.

Without an element of luck, I could not bring my wife to Australia.

Without an element of luck, my new world would have no substance and my old world had all but crumbled beneath my feet.

It was a quiet day, and my life slowly returned to running smoothly. A little more information came my way which would be needed to establish my new world. I was certainly ready to begin to build my new world. All that was missing was an element of luck, or an outside event. The missing link was still missing.

I needed some sleep. I took some tablets to help me sleep, but I still meditated for more than two hours before I slept.

The next morning, I awoke early despite the sleeping tablets I had taken. I had a trace of a headache. It was two days before the deadline would be reached.

I was relaxed and I was at peace, but I did not have the peace of a master at that time. I reflected that whenever the total peace of a master had descended over me, and this had occurred on many occasions, I felt like a master.

This total peace, the peace of a master I found very hard to describe. The peace of a master is a total peace. The peace of a master is not an outer peace which is based around the lower self and therefore artificial. The peace of a master is not the inner peace from spirit self which I had felt often, even when my earth plane world was collapsing around me. The peace of a master is a peace emanating from the higher self and radiating through each part of my soul. The peace of a master is a total peace, the peace of a master, which is accompanied by an incredible sense of well being. A sense of well being that transcended the physical body. Physically I was unfit and I did not really expect that I could have such a sense of well being whilst I was so unfit, but my sense of well being certainly existed, which conveniently dispelled another myth.

The third component of what I call the peace of a master is an expanding aura. I could feel my aura growing and expanding.

The concepts that I experienced increased my awareness. As I gained new understanding of firstly the element of luck or assistance from the fabric of existence, and now the true peace of a master, so my awareness continued to grow. These were both concepts that I had known and that I had been aware of, but it was only through understanding and experience that I became totally aware of the concepts.

I took one more step in respect of what would become Why?. It seemed that I was able to take only one small step in preparation at a time. I wanted to rush the book and write what would become Why? immediately.

I also took a second step in respect of what would become The Hall Of Masters, the first being my realisation that I would write what would become The Hall Of Masters.

All I needed to finish my books was time, but I could not quite step into my new world. I had so much to do in respect of my spiritual task that I could work on my spiritual task solely full time and still struggle to do all that was required. However, until I could step into my new world I needed to maintain my physical job, and I could do little more than preparation.

I could work full time to complete my current works without considering the large number of concepts, ideas and plots that I had been given for additional works. Even working full time on my writing the task ahead seemed daunting, without beginning to contemplate my spiritual centre. If I was required to maintain my earth plane employment the task seemed physically impossible, but I knew this was not so because I had been doing both in one form or another for two years.

That morning, I understood the message which I had been attempting to retrieve from the spirit plane for several days, related to Marie and a small task that I was required to attend to for Marie, before we effectively said goodbye. In fact, I had an opportunity to complete the task for Marie a few days earlier, shortly after I had begun to be given the message on the spirit plane, and I had not taken the opportunity.

I had known at the time that I had not taken the opportunity to deliver the message that I had for Marie, but I had not understood the significance of the message that I had for Marie in respect of my own journey. I had known for some time why Marie had re-entered my life, and Sue had confirmed that why Marie had re-entered my life to allow me to say goodbye. In hindsight, I had known about the message that I needed to deliver to Marie for some time. That the intensity with which I had been told to deliver the message to Marie had been increasing should not have surprised me, because I knew that the time when I would finally say goodbye to Marie after around three thousand years of shared experiences was only a few days away.

Nor was it surprising that I had finally been able to complete three more pages of my final review, which 'happened' to contain the key to my conscious awareness of the message that I needed to deliver to Marie.

This development emphasised the closeness of my new world, but I still could not take the final step into my new world. My final step into my new world could not be taken, until my new world had substance.

I recalled a time previously when I had been this close to what was to be my interim world, and I'd had a solution to my difficulties available to me without being aware of that a solution to my difficulties was available to me. I wondered if my current experience was to be a repeat of my previous experience.

God said, "No, you do not need to repeat that experience. There is no solution available to you, without assistance from the fabric of existence."

I accepted God's statement, mainly because I had already attempted to use all of the means that I could think of the find a solution to my difficulties. However, God had used similar statements to lead me to experience too often in the past, to allow me to draw strength from God's words.

I knew that God would tell me nothing that would interfere with my experiences. In earth plane terms, I did have the capacity to learn, albeit slowly on occasion.

However, in fairness God had told me that Katerina would obtain her visa, and Sue had passed on the message that when it was time for us to be together God would cut through the red tape, which was exactly what had happened, despite the Immigration department giving Katerina only a 20% chance of receiving a visa. That there had been many delays had been necessary illusions which I understood.

As my preparation continued that morning, I was given another seven chapters for what was to become Why?

I saw a common pattern that existed throughout all I had experienced, in respect of the peace of a master. I had initially experienced a taste of the total peace of a master, before losing the total peace of a master, only to have the total peace of a master return. The total peace of a master had subsequently come and gone on many occasions and with increasing frequency. Soon the total peace of a master would be permanent. The pattern of the changes within me as my vibrational rate and awareness increased, was very clear and very consistent.

After the total peace of a master became a permanent part of me, the total peace of a master would continue to increase beyond my expectations, as had the beauty which I saw in the world around me, or the ease of my communication with my higher self to choose two examples.

I noted with interest that I had needed to allow my inner peace to become permanent regardless of my difficulties, before I could experience the total peace of a master, which I had also done from within my difficult environment.

This of course was very much the point of my example. All that I had achieved, I had done from within a difficult environment, and at the same time from within an everyday environment which was not extreme.

I considered my experiences since Jane 2's departure. I noted a very significant difference within my environment which no longer had an 'artificial' feel about it.

Aspects of this period of preparation, which was less than two weeks in duration seemed to be falling into place. Parts of my preparation which had not previously made sense, now seemed to fit very neatly with one emerging picture of what was to be the beginning of my new world.

I still felt as I had felt for several months, that I would have sufficient resources to support myself whilst I continued my writing. The events that were transpiring seemed to fit very neatly into this equation. It appeared that by completing a little 'outside' work in addition to my writing, some of my ongoing expenses would be funded.

For several months, I had noticed children, particularly young children staring at me on a number of occasions. I had attempted to write the experience off as my imagination, which I knew was a nonsense in itself, but I was not comfortable with the experience. However, when young children stared at me, when Nancy was with me and Nancy witnessed young children staring at me, I could no longer tell myself that the experience was something that I had imagined. In hindsight, I could see that the times when young children had stared at me, had been the times when I was experiencing the total peace of a master.

I spent the morning having business meetings which achieved little other than to emphasise that I could generate sufficient income as a part time consultant working just a few hours per week, to both repay what I owed the business and to cover some of my expenses. However, I would still need to be able to support myself and family with any income I gained externally being a bonus but not essential.

All the 'ifs' and 'buts' in the world would not resolve my difficulties. All that I could do, was patiently wait a little longer.

In fact, the more that I considered that morning's experiences, the more the pieces seemed to be fitting together. I did not have a closed mind as to what may or may not happen, but that morning's experiences made sense and fitted very neatly into what appeared to be the next phase of my journey.

I spent the afternoon passing on the message which I had for Marie, whose's reaction to the message was defensive, but I was unconcerned. I had done what I had been asked to do, and as far as I was concerned that was the end of the matter.

A spirit had been hovering around me all afternoon. Firstly, in the office and subsequently when I arrived home. I had no idea of who the spirit was, or what the spirit wanted, if anything. The spirit was not quite 'with me' but the spirit was hovering extremely close to me.

I was able to recommence my review, and not for the first time I was struck by the power of the message which I was being asked to deliver.

I continued to reflect on the occasions when I had experienced the total peace of a master. I could see, with hindsight, that on the occasions when I had experienced the total peace of a master I was simply 10, and experiencing being 10. The occasions when I had experienced the total peace of a master, were the occasions when I was not experiencing any aspect of who I am not.

That afternoon, the day before the 'deadline', God explained to me that becoming only the '10', was a new existence.

That afternoon my body again fluttered as my vibrational rate continued to increase. The spirit continued to hover around me, and began to brush against me, without fully revealing itself, or giving any indication of why he or she was with me.

The deadline that I had been given arrived, without any sign of a solution to my difficulties. The deadline did not matter and I felt nothing. My fingers tingled with my contact with the fabric of existence, I was slightly 'outside' the total peace of a master, and the spirit continued to hover around me.

I reflected upon my journey. I had been repeatedly given deadlines. Whenever a deadline really mattered, I received what I needed. Whenever delays had occurred, the delays had been balanced and my difficulties had also inexplicably, from an earth plane, been delayed.

I had already experienced months of broken promises and delays, Jane 2 notwithstanding. Despite the broken promises I had maintained my faith, answered my questions, continued my journey, and increased my awareness.

Everything around me was linked to a date, today's date. If a solution presented itself my difficulties would be over. If a solution did not present itself, difficulties from every aspect of my life, would enclose around me.

I attempted to sleep but the tingling within my body as my vibrational rate continued to increase was so intense that sleep was not possible. Even my lips tingled. I finally slept in the early hours of the morning, slightly before dawn.

When I awoke, I visited the spirit plane for a short time. Whilst I was on the spirit plane I was given money in strange circumstances. I did not quite know how to translate the message into what may happen, so I left the message alone. The other interesting aspect of my visit to the spirit plane that morning, was that I seemed to be attached to, but not a part of the business.

That morning, I remained on the edge of total peace, my body continued to tingle slightly, and the spirit continued to hover around me. I would not be attending the office that day, because I still had a slight migraine.

When I removed the timing issue, and my interpretation of what was to occur, especially in respect to the beginning of my journey, from the equation, it left me with the fact that nearly all that God had told me would occur in respect of my own journey had occurred, and what had not occurred would occur in time.

Katerina's visa was a good example. I had been told many times and through many sources that Katerina would obtain her visa, and that I should not be concerned even though it seemed on occasions, that Katerina would not obtain a visa, and the bureaucrats with whom we were dealing seemed to be blocking us at every turn. The situation now, was that Katerina's visa had been approved, despite the difficulties. The only part of what I had been told which was incorrect, was the timing. The only part of what I had been told which meant nothing and had never really meant anything, was the timing.

If I removed the 'when' aspect from everything that I had been told and everything that I knew, it altered the perspective of my journey.

I was suddenly aware of an event which I had foreseen in respect of a 'parting gift' that I would hand the business. I realised that my 'parting gift' was now occurring. I had not recognised the foreseen 'parting gift' immediately, because the detail I had foreseen was different than the reality of my 'parting gift'. However, the principle of 'parting gift' was the same, which did not surprise me because this was what had occurred even when I foresaw events long before I became aware of my path.

I questioned whether I was 'changing the rules' to suit myself, but I wasn't changing anything. I had known and I had been told in many different ways that timing was unimportant. I had finally put all of the pieces together to create an awareness that the 'when' issue is not an issue.

I knew that my difficulties would be removed, I knew I would leave the business, I knew that Katerina would be with me, I knew that my books would be published and I knew that I would establish a spiritual centre. I also knew aspects of those key points such as that I would write many more books and that the souls from the Jesus lifetime would be drawn together at the spiritual centre.

What I did not know was how or when. If I did know how or when, my knowledge would interfere with my experiences. The one rule of the guidance, the one rule of existence, is that of 'not interfering with chosen experiences'.

To me 'not interfering with chosen experiences' sounded like a contrite, convenient and cop-out explanation, but 'not interfering with chosen experiences' is the explanation. The rule of non interference was why God could 'stand by' and watch millions die through genocide, to choose but one example. 'Not interfering with chosen experiences' is the one rule that applies to all that is.

The simple reality is that unless souls experience, they cannot return to the higher plane and if God interferes with our experiences we are not able to experience. If we do not feel our experiences, regardless of how horrific our experiences are, we cannot eliminate the aspects of who we are not, to become who we are and return to the higher plane. We cannot return to become a part of the love which is the very fabric of our existence.

As I reflected on that day's events I could see that I had applied my awareness. I had looked for the pattern which had identified a repeated or circular experience, and I allowed myself to see the common denominator, the principle which was repeating which in this instance, was the 'when' issue. Having identified the pattern, I would be able to break my circle. When I was ready to take the step into my new world, I had repeatedly made the 'when' issue important which was the 'wrong' step that I had been taking.

I knew that God had played a part in making the 'when' issue important, but I had been given an opportunity to apply my awareness and understand the 'when' issue when I no longer needed the 'when' issue.

I relaxed for a few hours, before considering my position, especially in view of some discussions I'd had with my former business partner in relation to the business.

The situation was, that I seemed to be pushed towards more involvement with the business. However, it was more than simply being pushed towards more involvement with the business. I was being drawn into increased involvement with the business, regardless of the fact that I was attempting to push any involvement with the business away. I would push involvement with the business away, I would avoid commitment, and I would attempt to stall and delay because I knew that my involvement with the business would be limited at best. The business is not my path. Regardless of the fact that the business is not my path, my involvement with the business was increasing anyway. I suspected that I would flow with my increased involvement with the business, because I did not seem to have any choice.

Having established that I was being drawn back into the business, when being drawn back into the business was not what I wanted, regardless of whether I fought being drawn back into the business. I knew that I needed to allow my being drawn back into the business to occur.

If I isolated the business aspect of my environment the issue's were that I knew that I would not be involved in the business as my future. The business was not what I wanted to do. I could not understand how I could drive and manage the business whilst I continued my spiritual journey and my writing. I had found it extremely difficult to balance minimal involvement in the business, with my spiritual journey so I could not see how I would be able to take on a far more active role in the business. However, if I did take on a far more active role in the business I knew that I would balance my increased insolvent the business and my spiritual journey, despite my concerns.

I also had the conscience issue to deal with. If I allowed my former business partner to let me do what I had wanted to do, and drive the business, how could I then turn my back, not necessarily on the business, but on the role that I had once sought?

If I then considered the financial aspects of my difficulties, taking a more active role in the business would do nothing to alleviate my financial difficulties. How could I control a national company with personal bankruptcy looming in the near to medium future? My problem was that my debts were too many and too varied to enter into a scheme of arrangement.

If I considered the writing that I was doing and the writing that I knew I would be doing, I did not know how I would be able to do all that was required in respect of my spiritual path, whilst attempting to run a business?

Realistically, if something occurred to alleviate my financial difficulties, I had to accept that I really would be able to do my spiritual task whilst running a business and I would be able to balance both jobs. I had the strength of a master, I had the peace of a master, and mostly my business affairs transpired very smoothly allowing me to do what I needed to do when I needed to do it with ease and without effort. The difficulty was that I would be required to attend the office full time. I would not be able to work from home, and I would struggle to be effective after nights where my spiritual journey prevented sleep. However, I could attend to both 'jobs' if I had to.

Accepting that I could attend to both 'jobs' if I had to left me one piece of the equation, Katerina. If I needed to balance my time between two full time jobs, what time would I have left for Katerina who would be in a foreign country with a support network of one. Albeit that I was a master.

Everything that was occurring around me was real from an earth plane perspective. For the most part everything seemed to be happening at a very fast pace, but everything did not add up. There was at least one piece of the equation that was missing, and it did not matter how I put my environment together, everything could not add up, until I was provided with the missing piece or pieces.

As with the 'how' and 'when' issues the need to obtain all of the pieces before reaching a conclusion was something that I not only knew, but I was aware of and the example which was my life was now insisting that I apply my awareness. I needed to flow with what was occurring, and allow the conflicting pieces of the equation to fall where they were destined to fall.

The point that was being emphasised, is that the awareness that is required to allow us to become who we are, a master, also needs to be applied after we have become who we are.

The ironic aspect was that long after my difficulties had overwhelmed me, long after my difficulties had caused me to doubt, long after I had reached the point where I could not go on, long after I had felt forsaken, and long after my difficulties had increased beyond what I had believed was my endurance, I was left with one inescapable and simple fact. All of my doubt had been removed.

The very difficulties, delays and broken promises which had created my doubts had also eliminated my doubts. I would not have believed that it was possible.

As I continued my review, I watched Evelyn's crystals dance across my line of vision. I realised that a very important question had disappeared from my environment. The question that had disappeared was 'could this really be occurring?'. The unknown spirit continued to hover around me.

In addition to receiving examples in respect of how I applied my awareness, the process repeated itself in respect of the insights. Each time that I thought about an event in my life or considered how a specific set of circumstance had transpired, one of my insights was 'given' to me so that I could once more witness for myself, how my insights applied to life.

The unknown spirit was continued to hover around me, although the spirit was not quite in my space. I maintained my peace, which was not quite the total peace of a master.

With the removal of what had remained of my doubt, the 'scum' which had been clinging to my aura was also removed. The issue of 'it can't be happening to me' was gone. 'It' was, 'it' had and 'it' would continue to happen to me.

As I continued my review that morning, I could see that Jane 2 had been very necessary. The questions that I had asked as a result of Jane 2's influence over my life had provided me with many answers, increasing my understanding and awareness.

I suddenly realised that my soul was 'away' seeking some information, a missing point, a little more awareness, or maybe even the missing piece of my puzzle.

God asked, "Does it matter how your difficulties are resolved?"

I replied, "No, I have moved beyond caring how my difficulties are resolved."

"Did how your difficulties were resolved ever really matter?"

"No, how my difficulties were resolved did not matter."

"You will be surprised."

My day in the office went easily with the confusion around my immediate future surrounding me. I attempted to flow and not allow myself to become caught up with the contradictions of my environment.

In the afternoon I needed to attend to some personal business, and everything flowed remarkably smoothly.

My soul was 'away' all day which occasionally caused me to feel a little lost. However, the return of my total peace was edging ever closer. The unknown spirit remained with me but was no longer hovering within my space.

When I lay down to sleep, the intense fluttering within my body increased and remained with me when I awoke two hours later. I was extremely tired, but all that I could do was attend the office for a few hours and return home to sleep as soon as I possible.

In my tiredness, I attempted to tell myself that all that I had experienced was not real, but I could not do so. My soul was still 'away' and I remained on the edge of total peace. In my tiredness my lower self was dazed and confused.

From within my tiredness my difficulties began to crowd in on me. Not because I felt any pressure, but because I wanted to be settled without the constant need to balance, I asked myself; 'How do I deal with this?'

I recalled my thoughts when I had first awoken after my brief sleep; 'If a solution did not present itself what example would I be for those who choose to follow?'

As my confusion lifted with my tiredness, I knew that regardless of what I wanted, events had to run their course and whatever solution I needed would present itself.

Despite the difficult start, the day flowed easily enough. I worked for half a day before I returned home to sleep.

Katerina received the letter confirming her successful visa application from the immigration department, and she understandably wanted to know when I would be able to send her some money to travel to Australia, and also where we would live. I could answer neither question.

That night both my soul and my total peace were closer to returning, but a solution to my difficulties did not seem to be in sight. The unknown spirit continued to hover around me. I considered the possibility that the unknown spirit could have been blocking the solution to my difficulties, but I did not feel this was so. My environment felt real, and my environment had not felt real when Jane 2 was influencing my life.

I knew that God was not controlling my life, I was controlling my life. What I experienced was, and always had been, my choice, made by my trinity working as one, to create the experiences that I had chosen, because I needed the experiences. I knew that it was my choices which had conveniently made me the example.

The simple reality is that I have chosen my environment of contradictions during my period of final preparation for my new world. That I have made this choice was appropriate and convenient to my chosen role as an example.

I wanted to choose to step into my new world, and I had consciously chosen to step into my new world. Therefore, I could not understand why I was preventing myself from stepping into my new world.

I meditated for a while. I saw a pattern which had existed since my journey began. Every time I had believed that I could not do something, I was then 'forced' to do what I believed that I could not do. The pattern was so consistent throughout my journey that I was surprised that I had not become aware of the pattern previously. The most noticeable incidence of the pattern, was when I had believed, genuinely believed, that I could not endure any more difficulties and delays. My difficulties and delays had continually increased, proving to me that I could indeed endure more difficulties and delays.

Having identified the pattern, I could easily recall instances throughout my journey, whether I had recorded the specifics or not, when I had done what I believed that I could not do.

Upon 'finding' the initial point after I had meditated, I then slept. When I awoke I spent some time on the spirit plane receiving a message, effectively confirming what my soul had brought back when my soul had returned. After I had returned from the spirit plane, I began to recall more examples of the pattern that applied to when I had done what I believed that I could not do. I had opened the door to my awareness, and examples or my past experiences of doing what I believed I could not do, poured through the open door.

Each day, I awoke wondering if that day would be when I stepped into my new world, and each night before I slept I wondered if I would step into my new world tomorrow.

I questioned whether I should want my new world, and I drew on God's assurances and God's explanation of the necessity of wanting in respect of our experiences. A new world had not been my motivation. A new world was what God had foreseen for me.

When I began my journey, a new world had been the last thing that I wanted. I had wanted only to have my old world, a world that was ripped out from under my feet. I had begun my journey only to regain my old world, to regain what I had lost, to regain what I never really had.

Two years after I had begun to look within, I stood as I had done on many occasions previously; a short step away from my new world and not quite able to take that one short step.

I lay quietly on my bed, listening to the birds outside my window and randomly recalling parts of my journey, my experiences, and my awareness as I allowed the fabric of existence to pulsate through my body and the total peace of a master to wash over me.

The time when I was scared that what I was experiencing was not real, and even more scared that it was real, seemed to be a lifetime away.

I recommenced my review. I reviewed one of the times when I had struggled to see past my difficulties, as my difficulties closed in on me. I was reminded of the 'Christmas' timing that I had been promised. If nothing else, the unfulfilled promise of Christmas had underlined the reality of my experiences, when I had suspected that an unfulfilled promise of Christmas would produce the reverse effect.

I noted with interest that 'reverse' had been the theme of the experiences that I had 'randomly' recalled earlier that evening.

Nor could I even begin to explain why I had written about having my investment repaid, it was not what I felt. I did not experience believing that God should reward me in any way, shape, or form. I simply wrote the fact, or the fact was written through me, but I did not experience it.

The following morning, I recommenced my revision. I could see clearly that everything that I had experienced since I had returned to the higher plane had been focused on understanding all that I knew, through experience to gain awareness and apply that awareness. What I found particularly noticeable was the amount by which the depth of my awareness had increased. That morning, my awareness seemed like a bottomless pool. As I continued to explore the depths of my awareness, I expanded the circle of my awareness.

What I had done, had been exactly what I had been told I would do whilst I was on the island, although I had not understood what I was being told at the time.

In some ways, I was surprised by how long and hard I had worked. Experiencing and writing book after book with very little respite. In between writing and reviewing books, I would 'research' through meditation and even planned future books. During this time I had also managed to maintain a full time job, and yet there were times when I felt that I could have worked harder. I did know that I'd given every ounce of strength that I had possessed and every ounce of strength that I had acquired throughout my journey.

In fact, I had given everything that I had physically, emotionally, and spiritually to my journey. In all honesty, I think what I found most surprising was that I had sustained and endured and I had not given up.

In a repeat of the previous evening I did not know why I had written this observation, or why I had used the term 'reward'. The words had come through me, which had been true of most of what I had written. Why I specifically mentioned that the words had come through me on this occasion I did not know, because even mentioning that the words came through me, came through me.

At a conscious or lower plane level I was not seeking reward, and I had not undertaken my journey looking for a reward.

I could not say that I had a 'holy' attitude in that I could not accept a reward, or that a reward was evil or not spiritual. If I was given a reward I would gratefully accept the reward. I could not even say that I would specifically use the reward to continue my spiritual work, because I would continue my spiritual work with or without reward. All that a reward would achieve is to remove my difficulties which would make my journey easier and more enjoyable. I had no problem with making my journey easier and more enjoyable and I did not believe that my journey needed to be difficult. That any environment is difficult is chosen.

As for the spiritual centre, I knew that the spiritual centre would be funded by my writing, which was why I knew that I would continue to write, regardless of what else occurred.

I did not feel what I was writing that day, and I did not feel a need to justify myself or my actions. I only felt a need to write.