A Little Review And Reflection.

God said, "Remember, each must find God within their own soul and each must find God on their own. There is no other way, and no one can find what is in the soul of another. All that is important is to become pure love, because becoming pure love is the only way to enter my kingdom."

I questioned how we could possibly feel love for a soul who took the life, or seriously hurt someone whom we were close to.

"Recognize that the experience is an illusion created to learn how to feel love in response to whatever occurs, and you will feel love in response to whatever occurs. Understand that death is not real, pain is not real. Death and pain are illusions created to learn. Feel compassion for the soul who causes the suffering, because you know that the soul will suffer what has been caused, in the next lifetime, and that the suffering will feel real to that soul."

Having recognized my new beginning, my soul left me to seek awareness. My soul was still attached, but my soul was not contained within my body. I felt out of touch with my own soul. I had a feeling that my soul would be away for sometime.

I spent the next few days struggling with some old problems. I knew that the problems were illusions, and I could not understand what was happening. I seemed to be slipping back, and I did not seem to be able to stop the slide. I was struggling within myself again.

God said, "Have you not learned that you have created all things so that you will learn? Does this not tell you that you have not yet learned not to allow your old problems to trouble you? You have created your old problems, and you will continue to create your old problems, until you learn from your old problems, it is your choice. Endure your old problems or learn from your old problems, that is your only choice, and that is the only way to resolve your old problems. Resolve your old problems from within, your old problems cannot be resolved from without.

"The only reason that you think that there are things left undone, is because you think that there are things left undone. All that is really left undone is that you have not learned. Learn now or endure, such is your choice. All knowledge, and all awareness means nothing unless it is applied. The key to your final peace is the application of all that you have learned. Apply all that you have learned and peace will be yours, you will have earned your peace.

"All of that which is troubling you relates to your artificial ego. You must release your artificial ego because your artificial ego only exists on the earth plane, and your artificial ego is binding you to the earth plane. Your artificial ego is fed by your need for approval from others, and you chose to be given this characteristic. You chose to be given your need for approval from others with the knowledge that you would overcome your need for approval from others."

"It is hard to overcome that which is a part of me."

"That is your mistake, your need for approval from others is not a part of you. Your need for approval from others is a part of the illusion that you have created. You must destroy the illusion that you have created, because your need for approval from others will destroy your ability to complete your task. You have the illusion only through the necessity to overcome the illusion.

"You have learned to overcome your illusions in the now moment, but you must overcome your illusions in the future moment. You choose to think that you will obtain approval from those you have chosen to concern yourself with, especially the one, but you must understand that the approval will be of no more importance in the future than the approval is now. Those may approve or they may disapprove, that is their choice. Allowing this approval, which you know is not relevant, to matter is your choice. You have created the illusion for this purpose, and you have strengthened the illusion in respect of the one for this purpose.

"I ask you, how can the approval of the one be more important than the approval from deep within, the approval from God? I tell you, the approval of the one cannot be more important than the approval from deep within, and the approval of the one is not more important than the approval from deep within, but you continue to make the approval of the one more important than the approval from deep within. The one is only relevant because you have made the one relevant, and you have made the one relevant to enable you to learn that the one is not relevant."

As I completed a review, I experienced being ridiculed for following a spiritual path, by a man who had been a good and loyal friend to me for ten years. I did not like my friend's ridicule, my friend's opinion had always been important to me. Other than at the beginning of my journey I had told my friend very little of what I had experienced. As my friend ridiculed me, I thought; 'you do not understand', and it was important to me that my friend understood.

That night I reflected on my friend's ridicule and what I had felt. I knew that my friend's approval was still important to a part of me. I felt that my friend's approval was important even though I knew that my friend's approval was not important.

It did not surprise me that I 'coincidentally' reviewed God's advice the very next morning. As I had discovered throughout my many reviews, the subtle reminders that surrounded my life coincided with whatever I would review next. In many ways I was reliving my journey, and seeing all that I had missed previously.

"Shatter all illusions my son, because that is the key to the peace which you crave. Your permanent peace, not the temporary peace that you have found, which comes and goes with the illusions that you create and then dispel. Your permanent peace can be achieved, but only you can achieve your permanent peace by removing the need to create illusions to learn from.

"Now is the time to apply what has been learned, because without such application nothing has been learned. The application of what you have learned is what has remained unresolved. You have not applied what you have learned. The application of what you have learned can only be learned by yourself, from within.

"See how you suffer when you fail to learn, but the suffering like the lesson is an illusion. How many times must you be given a lesson before you learn? To you the suffering is real, because you have made the suffering real. You have made the suffering real to enable you to learn.

"You continue to doubt and you continue to question. You continue to hang on to that which you know you must let go of, because the things that you hang on to facilitate your doubts.

"You attempt to convince yourself that you are scared that all that has occurred is not real, but you are really scared that all that has occurred is real. Why should the prospect that all that has occurred is real scare you? All that has occurred is real, and because all that has occurred is real you have nothing to fear. You feel that you are not worthy of this task, which is why you seek the approval of others. Will receiving the approval that you seek make you more worthy? Should you be unworthy? None can be unworthy, because I am within all.

"Why are you afraid of letting go of that which you hold, when there is nothing to hold? Let go of all illusion and embrace the truth. Embrace me because I am the truth. Live what you have learned. You have long complained about a tightrope on which you walk, but the tightrope has been created by yourself, if only you can see this. You must continue to exist on the earth plane, and yet you can also exist on the higher plane. You must allow yourself to exist on the earth plane, and also exist on the higher plane. You say you have one foot in each plane, but this is your choice. Have both feet in each plane, and know that you can have both feet in each plane. Have both feet in each plane by allowing yourself to have both feet in each plane. You understand so much, and yet you understand so little."

When God explained that I could exist on both the higher plane and the earth plane, I did not understand exactly what God meant. However, when my journey drew to a close, I would exist on the earth plane, the spirit plane and the higher plane simultaneously.

Later that day God again spoke, "Why do you continue to concern yourself about the future when you need to live now? Have trust in me, have trust in yourself and have no concern for the future. The future will be as the future will be whether you concern yourself about the future or not. All that concerning yourself about the future affects, is now."

The following morning God continued to give me advice. "Continue to look within, you must come Full Circle. You will come Full Circle in time."

This was sound advice, and I believed that I understood the meaning, but in reality, I did not even begin to understand what was meant by 'Full Circle'.

That evening, I was troubled, mainly by my old attitudes which I still clung to. I decided to meditate, and find the answers within.

God said, "You are learning, my son, but you still try to be in all places, to do all things at once. Do not continue to place pressure upon yourself. Relax, allow what is to be."

I knew that I needed to come to terms with all that I was experiencing. It was time for me to really understand all that I had learned. I needed to continue to give myself lessons, to create situations which I knew were no more than illusions, so that I would really learn. What I did not realize is that I would forget my conscious decision to continue creating experiences. However, if I had remembered my conscious decision, my experiences could not have felt real, and I would not have created the correct environment which I needed to enable me to learn.

I also needed to come to terms with my memories, such as remembering passing through solid objects as a spirit, and remembering many people from my present lifetime who had been with me in the Indian village.

The next morning, as a result of the previous night's meditation, I understood that the ties to my old world could not be severed, because I was hanging on to the ties to my old world. I wanted to cut the ties to my old world, but I was afraid to let the ties to my old world go. Every time that the ties to my old world had been cut, I would tie a knot in the ties to my old world so that I could hold on to something that was not real, like a child refusing to let go of a security blanket which provided false security.

God said, "You hold on to things by making them important when they are not important. If you wish to let the ties to your old world go, stop making the ties to your old world important. You doubt all that you learn, ever questioning, refusing to let go of your precious doubts, which you use to confirm your sanity. Let your doubts go now, embrace the peace. Releasing your doubts is the way to the eternal peace which you seek."

I reflected on the importance of meditation, of looking within. I had learned that meditation was important, but I was beginning to realize the true nature of meditation, and how important it is to meditate.

"Meditation is most important. Looking within is the only way to obtain the answers that all seek, and looking within is the only way to find God."

I was still struggling to let go of issues which I knew were unimportant. I knew that there was nothing to hang on to, but still I hung on, regardless.

"Learning to apply what you have learned completes the lesson. How can you complete a lesson without learning to apply what you have learned? You expect to know how to apply what you know to be so, but first you must learn to apply what you know to be so. All learning is through experience, you now experience how difficult it is to apply what you have learned, so that you will learn how to apply what you have learned. When you learn how to apply what you have learned, you will wonder why you found it so difficult to apply what you have learned, because you will have learned that it is easy to apply what you have learned.

"Do not despair, you have finally learned that the true nature of life is what is termed spiritual, and you have learned that the physical is but an illusion. You have learned and you see how you create illusions yourself for your learning. You are finally letting go of the physical perspective that was so important to you when what you have termed your transition began, and which you have clung to throughout your transition, not knowing that letting go of your physical perspective, was your transition.

"Every step that you have taken has been a transition. A transition from one step to the next as you have travelled your path, and so it will be. You have completed your transition many times, which you did recognize at the time, and you became confused each time that a new transition started. Every time you had completed a transition and knew that you had completed a transition, you were right, and because you then began a new transition you were also wrong. This enabled you to place pressure upon yourself because of your lack of understanding.

"You can see this now that you have looked for this piece of the truth, and so it is, and so it will be with all things. One by one seeking the pieces of the truth that will complete the circle. Only when you find all of the truth will the circle be complete, and only by completion of the circle can you come, what you have termed Full Circle."

With these works, God had explained to me exactly what was going to occur and exactly what I would achieve. However, I did not really understand what God had explained until I completed my journey and my task.

"You have now completed more of the circle than you know that you have completed, but at the same time you have completed less of the circle than you think that you have completed. Such is the nature of the circle of existence. You have found the existence of the circle, as will others after you."

At the time I had thought that this was just another of the circular and seemingly conflicting explanations which God gave me from time to time. However, after I had completed my journey, I could see that this statement was indeed 100% accurate.

"There have been many teachers. Some teachers have taught many, some teachers have taught few. Not all those who have been taught have learned, but because some have not learned does not make the teacher any less a teacher. Is not a teacher with but one pupil still a teacher?

"Go forth now my son and teach those who wish to learn, and go forth and learn that which you do not know. It is as I told you on the island, teaching and learning is your destiny, did you forget so easily?

"The important thing to remember is that each must accept their own truth, and each must find the pure love within themselves, regardless of what means they use to look for the pure love within. Pure love is within all, and pure love must be found within all, it is the only way. What an individual believes does not matter and regardless of one's belief, all must look within. Looking within is the only way to find the truth. Looking within is the only way to find pure love."